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upward.
He slid her bra strap off her shoulder, his usual grace replaced with near-desperate hunger. Skipping
the other one entirely, he simply undid the front clasp and nuzzled the cups apart before drawing her nipple
into his mouth. He sucked hard, sending a surge of white-hot desire from the hard tip all the way down to
her slickening sex.
 Oh God, she breathed, arching into his mouth, grinding onto his cock.  Please, she whimpered, not
really sure what she was pleading for. Him. That s all she knew. Him.
 Inside you, Jess. His voice was a growl against her breast, a demand. His hand tightened on her hip,
slowing her movements, pulling her down until it hurt to be so close and still so empty.
 Please, she said again, throwing her head back.
His hand struggled to open his belt and she realized what he d meant, that he needed her help. She
took over the task, her hands making quick work of his zipper while he tugged aside her panties. In
seconds, she was guiding his thick shaft inside, sliding down onto him in slow, stretching increments.
He watched her descent, his heavy-lidded gaze locked with her own. For all that their desperation had
led them to this, she couldn t bring herself to move faster, to destroy the moment. Finally, full of him, she
settled completely on his lap and wrapped her arms tight around his head. She pressed a soft, almost chaste
kiss to his lips.
 You re not dead.
His eyes glistened, filling with emotions she could barely begin to understand, but she wasn t running
from them. Didn t even want to.
 You re right here with me. Right where you re supposed to be.
He nodded.  I love you, Jess.
Could you hear a heart shatter? Or was that simply the sound of the last walls she had left, breaking
apart because of this man? This incredible, impossible man.
She never got to think of an answer. He dragged her down to his mouth, branding her with a kiss
while his hips thrust upward into her, sizzling any brain cells she might have left with pure sensation.
Soon, there was nothing at all except the rush of their bodies sliding together, nearly pounding in the
frenzy toward completion. Finally, finally, she found it, her muscles clamping around him and taking him
with her, his shout of release a sound she felt against her slick skin.
Wordlessly, they held each other, their bodies cooling, but the emotions around them stayed raw.
Exposed.
As if he sensed her disquiet about that, his hand trailed up and down her back until she lay her head
on his good shoulder.  It s going to be okay, Jess, I promise.
She shook her head.  You can t promise that. Look what nearly happened today.
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 Look what did happen today. We re here. Together. I can t think of anything better than this.
 That s over-simplifying things a little, don t you think?
 I like things simple. Just because it s easy doesn t mean it s wrong.
Her mouth twisted wryly.  I haven t exactly been easy to deal with.
 No, but I like that about you.
She lifted an eyebrow, even though he couldn t see it.  The challenge?
He shook his head, taking the opportunity to nuzzle her.  The fire. Even when you re completely
irrational, you re passionate about it. I haven t seen that too often. Most of the women I ve known only get
passionate about jewels or furs.
 I m not agreeing about the irrational part. But she knew she should. There was a lot that she should
do. Should admit. Should try. Being fair was only the first on the list.  I ve never had either of those things,
so I don t know how I might get about them.
 You d probably like them, but I don t think you ll go ballistic over them. I d bet you ll take them or
leave them.
 You can tell that, can you? Just from looking?
 I have an eye for it, he replied, casual as you please. But suddenly, she didn t want casual. She
wanted closure. Answers.
 I don t know what to make of you, Kyle, she made herself say, pushing past the fears that she was
headed into waters too deep. She d been in too deep the first time he smiled at her.  You re handsome and
popular, you re well dressed and you seem to do well for yourself financially.
He waited a few long seconds, the casual charm dissipating. He swallowed, his arm tightening around
her slightly, then nodded a few times. At least they were both on the same page. Terrified.
 Sounds like there s a but in there somewhere, he finally said, somewhat hoarsely.
There was.  But you want things normal people do.
 That s because I am normal.
 I m not. It hurt to say that, to finally admit it. Being different was never an identity she craved, but
it was the one she d been stuck with. Hell, it was the one she hid inside from everyone she knew& except
him.  You and Lucas had a good family, right? Never wondering what might happen if you weren t good
enough or important enough to keep around. I never had that.
 I knew no one was going to throw me out in the cold, but there were always a lot of kids to take care
of. I thought if I made myself indispensable, they would never want to lose me. If I worked hard enough,
I d always have a place to belong.
 Is that why you re so dedicated to Goesler & Groom? His question was soft, but important. For both
of them.
 If I had a therapist, that s probably what they d say. I m a pleaser.
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His irrepressible humor intruded into their seriousness.  I m pleased with you.
She smiled back, turning it into a kiss she pressed just beneath his jaw.  I know you are. I just don t
know why. I ve done nothing to endear myself to you except sleep with you.
The hand in the sling the one she d completely discounted in their lovemaking grazed the tip of
her breast next to it.  That was pretty endearing.
She sat up and smirked at him, ignoring his groan and her own small throb of pleasure because his
cock was still nestled within her, not quite soft enough to slip free. She didn t want him to. There was
something& intimate about being joined this way while talking. You couldn t be anything but honest. She
needed that freedom now.
 I m not indispensable, Kyle. You can get sex anywhere. I don t know where I stand if I can t
understand why you want to be with me so badly. If I could, maybe I d feel safer about& us.
It was only when he pushed a breath out that she realized he d been holding it in.  At least you re
admitting there is an us.
 I m scared. I was am completely unprepared to care about you.
 But that s exactly what you did.
She nodded.  I didn t want to admit it, not to me and definitely not to you. But& 
 But what?
He was so serious, she couldn t help but wonder at him. And want to make things easier for him to
understand too.  But then I got locked in a car with your brother for a few hours.
He grinned, that typical Kyle grin. He d probably find a way to smile in the worst situations. Which
would be great, really. How much easier would her life have been if someone had been there to smile with
her? If someone had made her want to smile back?  I told you so. You d never have lasted in a placenta.
She rolled her eyes.  He actually made a couple of things clear for me. Things I didn t want clear,
since we re being honest.
 Which were?
This was it. The moment of absolute no return.
But a look in his eyes made that so much less daunting than she would have thought. Gamble or gone,
girl.
 I m in love with you. Voicing it made it tangible. Even if she couldn t give good reasons why she
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